This past weekend was a weird one. It was pretty packed and full of enjoyable activities, but also full of uneasiness.
Because Ben and I know that 90% of babies are born within 2 weeks of their due date (on either side)--and we're right in that zone these days--we're both feeling a bit out of sorts; we're planners and *slight* control freaks, so being in this place where I could go into labor any minute but also might not go into labor for another few weeks is hard for us. No matter what we're doing, we've got this big question mark hanging out above our heads, laughing at our plans... On Friday night, I finally got to see Ben coach one of his basketball games [he's the summer league coach for our local High School team and his games are usually on nights when I teach], and then we went out for one last dinner with my dad before he headed back to Atlanta on Saturday morning. On Saturday, I taught has usual in the AM, and then we spent the afternoon interviewing in-home childcare providers, which was really strange. We kept talking about how hard it is to try and pick someone to take care of your baby when you don't even know your baby yet. How do we know who is the best fit for her? How can we trust anyone to take care of this little being that we aren't even taking care of yet? But at the same time, we have some great options so that's a good thing. Then yesterday, I snuck out to Love Yoga Fest in the morning and took a class with MC Yogi + Amanda Giacomini. It was called "Happy to Be Here" and was all about finding joy and happiness in life, a lovely message that I always need to hear. It was a beautiful morning practicing under the tent outside, breeze coming through, surrounded by yogis breathing--and as usual, it was incredible feeling our baby moving inside of my belly as I moved through the yoga poses. I kept thinking about how much I'm going to miss practicing with her! In between all of the bigger activities of the weekend, we ran errands, got new phones (hooray!), took a nap because we were both ZONKED, and talked about how crazy this time in limbo feels. Physically, I feel pretty great for being 38 weeks pregnant, and feel so lucky to have had such an easy pregnancy. Does my energy drop by the end of a busy day? Absolutely. But I can still teach, I can still practice yoga, I can still walk Sayde outside in the heat, I'm still sleeping well, and I just don't believe that I could have a baby any day now... But I could. And so we wait. And try to stay as present as possible because it could be another few weeks before anything changes [if our little one decides she needs more time]. But also, at any moment, all plans could be forgotten, all calls and appointments canceled, all subs tapped to begin subbing, and our world could be flipped upside down. So here we go, I guess...!
Ellen
8/8/2016 07:50:05 am
Waiting for anything is difficult, but waiting for BABY is the most difficult of all! Especially because all you can do is- well, wait!! Still- enjoy these last days as just the two of you as it will never be quite the same(in a good way). Day by day now, anytime- SOON! Comments are closed.
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